WIDE AWAKE

Reflected and Refractured in the Shade
L.A. Miahi 2013

tis an impass that appears/whenever I assume

I walk into the lighted stairs/to climb upon the moon....

I take the motion of this world/to act upon my own

I strip the layers of a pearl/ back to the scraped out bone....

I make this feeling of desire/ to hold back stitches deep

I weep upon the funeral pyre/ where I will fall asleep....

there is no need to carry on/ there is no need to act

for I have covered and have won/ an angels sacred pact....

I embrace this wonder that is here/ I live within my room

dancing in a pit of despair/ to an opera singing tune....

where there is end therefore is life/ a cycle of release

I offer up my soul of strife/ to garner up all peace....

I follow all who lead the way/ until tis mine to take

then I shall wait and make you pay/ back to being wide awake......

L.A. Maihi 2/02/2013

Why?

'Reflected and Refractured'
L.A. Maihi

to blog or not to blog that is the question...

do I need more typing practice to share my minds machinations
do I need to 'Put it out there'
or 'Just do it'
do I need to 'make my point' or 'just be'
do I need to 'have a voice'
'share a moment'
'hold a breath'
'taste a word'
'exhale a sentence'
'just be heard?'

is there time to 'notice a gesture'
'smile a heartbeat'
'steal a pulse'
'feel a glance'

or Not!

to be or not to be....

LA. Maihi 2/02/13

HOW CAN I BREATHE WHEN YOU DO NOT



HONGI INSPIRED
L. A. Maihi 2012

we take the curves with our touch/to break the swerves that hold so much/then as we sway upon the cusp/we open up our heart to trust/how can I breathe when you do not/how do I continue at such cost/but trust it plays upon the harp/that fills the dark divided part/tis here I stand alone to cry/tis here I stand to dry my eyes/for when the tears have finally ceased/and I have emptied out the beast/the light within it brings me home/ for I have never been alone..... ♥ Io

L.A. Maihi
2012

A LITTLE BIT OF MAUI

TUI IN MOTION
L.A. Maihi 2010

beyond the curtain of no sounds
the hallowed hallway paths the ancient burial grounds
seeking an audience in order to tell
all hallows eve come cast your spell.....

the night takes flight upon the stair/of well and known of do or dare/the light it glows an orange gleam/seeping colour through a blackened seam/a stream of vibration alights the halls of hallowed unstoppable breathe/take heed then take that fall/ the thunder of air will take you next...down the tunnel to the underground cave where the jawbone is laying to entice, to engage. Don't be tempted by the magic it brings, for to envelop it all is to feather the wing. Oh, you are clever by your wit and your eye, but not so clever as to never die. Steal the magic and take it to light upon the ocean of your birthright. Oh, yes Maui, tis you I see, upon this ocean upon our sea, the feats that amaze are an open book, upon the shelf on which we look. You take to heart what matters most, and take apart the heathen ghost/there is no time for you to take care/for we have followed and are prepared.....

L.A. Maihi
11/11/12

THERE IS NO REFLECTION THERE IS ONLY ME

HONGI
L.A. Maihi 2012

There is no reflection there is only me
Standing grounded
Totally surrounded
Mind buzzing soundlessly

There is no reflection for time will tell
Division of living
White to black & back
Scaling heaven to hell

There is no reflection of emotional ties
inflicting pain
going insane
truth defying the story of lies

there is no reflection in a shadow of doubt
how I live
in a media sieve
where looking in is home at a full throttle shout

there is no reflection striving for perfection
trying so hard
emotional card
dealing the deck of natural selection

there is no reflection there is only me
I am not invisible
I am not divisible
Do you see me?

L.A. Maihi
02/11/12







CAN YOU SEE ME?

ALCYONE in progress
L.A. Maihi 2012

There is no reflection there is only me

Standing grounded

Totally surrounded

Mind buzzing soundlessly

There is no reflection for time will tell

Division of living

White to black & back

Scaling heaven to hell

There is no reflection of emotional ties

inflicting pain

going insane

truth defying the story of lies

there is no reflection in a shadow of doubt

how I live

in a media sieve

where looking in is home at a full throttle shout

there is no reflection striving for perfection

trying so hard

emotional card

dealing the deck of natural selection

there is no reflection there is only me

I am not invisible

I am not divisible

Do you see me?

L.A. Maihi
02/11/12

WAITING FOR THE RAIN

STAR CHART ATTACK
L.A. Maihi 2012

waiting for the rain with the clouds put on hold/holding that shroud that surfaces to scold/scolding the past for letting it be/being the last one to see....

cradling the rain yet to fall/falling from high bouncing the wall/wall that delivers the blow to the soul/soul of content that makes you whole.....

laying in limbo life on a slide/sliding to nowhere, nowhere to hide/open those eyes that are asleep/asleep in the darkened world beneath....

reach from below and grasp onto life/life beyond the shroud on the edge of the knife/knife of decision the choice to make/making your world become awake.....

L.A. Maihi
24/10/12

STAND AND DELIVER

SOFTLY SOFTLY
L.A. Maihi 2012

back to being naked

back to the past

back to a child clinging to your heart....

stand to the wall

stand up and pray

stand and deliver while standing in the way....

run to the mountain

run as fast as you can

run to your mother buried in sand

jump up and scream

jump up to play

jump into living while moulded of clay

kick up your heels

kick up the turf

kick out from underground buried in dirt

hold tight to Io

hold tight and stay

hold tight into the night let Io lead the way....

L.A. Maihi

BENEATH THE WILLOW

SYMBOL COLLAGE
L.A. Maihi 2012

there was a place where I would lie

beneath the willow face to sky

it was my place of safety net

where all was there to forget

I lay me down upon the earth

from which I came upon my birth

and there I will return one day

where I will lay the day away...
L.A. Maihi


 

NO VALUE TO ME

the words that fall from my tips that encircle my hands upon which they are stitched/the grammar is stilted by the tilt that is wilted/as they keep sliding upon the slippery slope to hiding/amongst what all others can't help but see/that the mirror reflected is not me....

SKYCHART COLLAGE
L.A. Maihi 2012

the image is tight while beneath the surface I fight/to let my light shine upon all that is mine/what's mine is yours but we only give for a cause/yet all that I own I would gratefully loan then not receive back/due to my own possessiveness lack/but the value is a myth that if not calculated does not exist/so free it can be but of no value you see/so put on a price and let them haggle and fight/for something of worth must have struggle, pain and hurt/if given for free no value to me?

L.A. Maihi
21/10/12

HOHA

SULTRY COLLAGE
L.A. Maihi 012

 

I've been hoha but not far

but still whore-har that needs to be soothed

I've fallen in a hole and noticed it was lined with petals

frangipanis ponsianas golden-showers

and the lives of these flowers

that have reflected and fractured and sacked

and attacked but more importantly

just given back....


I've landed on my side and didn't want to

abide by the ways of the rules

I can't be fucked with some of the muck that

gets spread about like a mulch

but under the compost lies a frost where a

seed is planted and things can't be taken

for granted....


I was hoha

now I just am...

L.A. Maihi

DELIVER

COLLAGE
FROM PAPA TO RANGI
L.A. Maihi 2012

the heart wants what the heart wants/but the mind will not sway/from a path that the heart thinks/it wants/for the mind is blocking the way...the way we say is not there/but within and above and everywhere/the heart wants but doesn't stay/because the mind is always going the other way...

which way to go is a question I know/to follow the heart to the land/or impart what we demand/the mind has a mind of its own/where we go along for the ride/and abide by the outside dilemma/where forever is never/we of that place the never never/we land with grace and deliver....

L.A. Maihi

MY SONG

SENDAI
L.A. Maihi 2010

there was a time 'n my mind, when everthing was easy...

I waited on this timeline for the future and didn't realise I was there...

there was a time within this timeline that escaped into the sublime...

for all that was there was everything... with me unaware...

my mind distracted and fractured by the life to live...

shinny things presenting an array of out-of-the-way creations...

my mind wanders this timeline from the left side front to back....

and in this minstrel of mime, within a bent line, I come upon a stack...

there is a stack that hovers above my earth our Mother

a stack that leads me always back to a line that's drawn upon time...

timelord or not, wordsmith or what? Definitely Maori to glory...
but always Io is the story but where does he/she sit within my lined soul pit....

not within a manmade affair, where I must do or not compare...
but within a spark of soul that lights my light and makes me whole...

where do I look to glance upon this abundance of nature of my own...

tis within this timeline I stand on...within my heart is Io's song....

L.A. Maihi

09/10/2012

IHI

SYMBOLIC OVERTURE
L.A. Maihi 2012

The face I wear now/ is only/ the one YOU see
For beneath the skin/ there lies within/ a face that is totally ME

The truth that shines so bright/ will light/ the darkness in me
For beneath/ the cut of plain-speak/ is the yearning to be free

The heart that beats so loud/ is only/ heard by you
For beneath the ribs....there within lives.... a heartbeat so true

The spirit that is scrying/ can only be felt by me
For beneath the pain/ is a world of gain/ in the whispered word
IHI.....

L.A. Maihi

NEARLY TIME

JOURNEY OF SOULS
L.A. Maihi 2010

Kia kaha wordsmiths.....the moon is high and I can feel her PULL
kinda like when your arm gets caught in the screw with the by-products from the kill....she won't be right mate / flippin-ell / whose limb is that one cause i can't stand the bysies smell.....aint like money yet that's what it means as the turn of the screw pulls you into the machine...With maybe a tugging at your skin, you just gotta follow.... only way in... as you run life is hollow... kinda PULL.......

Kia kaha Maori.....the oceans are rising and I'm tasting the SALT
kinda like learning to drive on the Nullabor without trees...just aim to the ocean/fu^&k the commotion/aint just going thru the motions/push down the clutch/realease the break/smash the salt-bush/lead foot louie too much/hello the caves are where/f*&^k got a wombat stew here/sea on the lips and eyes looking to sea light...running as fast as i can to see the Bight....Halt!....kinda SALT

Kia kaha timelords...the planets align and I'm feeling the TIME
aint no flat­-line thats out-of-focus and un-refined...aint..... she'll be-right mate /watcha billy-lids / feel like a dog's eye /say hi to your cheese and kisses,,,, but more............ 'isn't it a sublime kinda mime'...with maybe a circular, not horizontal or perpendicular or any particular but more cyclical... like the wheels on a bicycle........kinda TIME

L. A. Maihi

RUMBLINGS

TARANAKI TEARS
L.A. Maihi 2012

tis time ehoa / to paddle ashore / in a waka with platitudes demure/ that recognise the pull/ of a full moon thats still/ waiting to wane out with pain/ of mutual disgust/ that can never explain/ why the hell we put up with this game of going for bust/ while others just slid along with one hand in the pie and the other just going along for the ride/ without looking to see what the hell is happening in our sea/while companies explain that all this pain is how it has to be/has to be what/ has to be not/ we make the choice/ its supply and demand/economies of scale/ but no snake skin oil only rena spoil/we desire too much/we want an endless stream of the almighty dream/that will never be realised/ until we realise that all we gain/we despise....

L.A. Maihi

CREATION

TANE BRINGER OF LIGHT
L.A. Maihi 2012

nothingness/mind free/turning /to empty/night-time/ I can/moonlight/ I am.....
earth will rise to meet the fall
as time travels between them alll
Papa moans and takes the slack
While Rangi weeps to fill the cracks
lava will flow while oceans arrive
to cover their mother where she lies
Tane will climb to appease above
while looking below to Papa his love
it's time to divide its time to brace
while light falls in every place
rain is shed and hearts are torn
as longing and separation is born...

L.A. Maihi

SHREDDING THE BEAST

SYMBOLIC RAMPAGE
L.A. Maihi 2012

from feeling blue-blooded we are here to start what is a star-studded cast iron mask/ it displays a smile when needed to be but covers the true face of its identity..... Steel-clad-fighting-lad it deletes the one below /this emotion-less metal look of bliss is running amok and totally worthless..... this tin-face is to replace what papa offered/for in her bequest she gave me one best for reflecting the feelings of me/so to survive this maim-fest of shredding the beast/I wear a mask that lets me be me....

L.A. Maihi

ASHES

PLANET ALIGN BLUE
L.A. Maihi 2012

phoenix

rising flames

to ashes....

watching...

rainbows drown the light


taonga

scaling heights

of shale...

wrestling...

hearts shadowed with blight


violence

ripping skin

to shreds...

cradling...

wounds of new & old


wahine

sweet caress

of body...

ataahua...

wrapping mates to soul


tane

kia kaha

hold strong....

powerful...

holding heavens aloft


Papa

beating heart

from below....

tinana...

strength with belly soft


Rangi

shedding tears

to earth...

aching...

to his timeless love


Io

shining light

within....

turning....

to reveal heaven above

L.A. Maihi

WAIRUA FLOW

SULTRY UMBER
L.A. Maihi 2010

let go and flow.....don't feel let the wairua heal stop thinking/back in the cave/go with the right/let go the brave/flatline your heart/no need to kickstart/leave it behind/just live the sublime/hold out your hand/reach for the door/slam it behind you/lock it from more/one step ahead/two steps behind/the journey continues/within your mind.... reach for the light/turn on the switch/let your heart see/unravel a stitch/the stitch to the whole/the whole left behind/in the weary soul/in the heart that's sublime/embrace that has past/look to the moon/for she will know/if it's too soon/too soon for what/can't hold a dream/for now is the time/to stand up and be seen!

L.A. Maihi

TAROT DEAL

PAPA DETAIL
L.A. Maihi 2011

gambler of life to distract

eternal child fresh eye attack

hedonist with a muse of grace

prince to move into your space

damsel in a tower far

divine child pure light of star

shapeshifter moving with ease

hermit to focus and release

servant to no one but all

martyr for own selfish fall

athlete to embrace ego

teacher to tell you how to go

tis the gambit of the deal

each card a spoke in the wheel....

L.A. Maihi

STILLNESS

PAPATUANUKU
L.A. Maihi 2010

I'm too tired to rhyme, I feel outta sorts outta time, I'm trying to rest and stay in-line but it never works I get bored...sublime
I need a spark to churn, I need a reason to live to learn, I'm trying not to get burned but I always do always...my turn
the pocket is empty, the collar is down, the lapel is flat, there is no sound
I'm too unsettled i fear, a feeling of 'don't care', I'm uneasy with what I  hear, somethings outta kilto..... unclear
I need to calm down my skin, it's crawling on me and in, past spell for my watcher-of- sin, he guards the door, no-one in
the heart is cold, the blood is drained, the eyes are dull, take the pain
I'm too unfocused to see, a world of never to be, for within that thought I can't see, a way out of...misery
I need to stop in place, where everything falls to grace, and words can rest in space, slow your pace
a cry is sounded, sit on your hands, cover your eyes, do not stand
Nature, nurture, cradling heat, heartbeat pounding...heartbeat
tears, helpless, craving alone, silent loving..blood and bone
embrace with heart, surround with love, do not crave, to go above.....

L.A. Maihi

OTHERTIMES

I AM MESMERIZED
L.A. Maihi 2012

I need to raise the barriers
bring back up those walls
harden up my heart
before a mighty fall

I cannot be this naked
I cannot be this raw
I cannot feel this much
I cannot feel... no more

too tired with emotion
too tired with the strain
too tired with the prospect
too tired with the pain!!!

the journey continues
the journey to where?
the journey of life
but who the fuck cares?

I need to focus inward
to see the way back home
I need to walk the path
to know I'm not alone

I need to understand
why man was made a man
to never lose the sight
of walking hand in hand

to reach toward the light
to wrap the dark around
to hold onto the dream
to listen for that sound

the walls must fall
the body must feel
the heart will learn
how to heal....

L. A. Maihi

SOMETIMES

ALCYONE
L.A. Maihi 2012

tis a hole I want to jump in
with a sky of dirt
to rest my heart upon a knife
and let it's journey hurt

tis a tree I want to hide in
underneath the bark
to splinter all my bones
and leave a bloody mark

tis the ocean I yearn to sink in
without any breath
to watch the bubbles go above
while cradling my death

tis a storm I wish to join in
hail pelting my skin
lightning strikes my face
the blackened flesh within

I seek no joy nor want it
I need no smile to see
but wallow within myself
to just let it be....

L. A. Maihi

WAITING

TA MOKO JOURNEY
L. A. Maihi 2010 -

The clock marks the wall the wall marks the hands on the clock in the hall.
Waiting for the time tick-tocking by the time it's too late to wait its knocking.
No one's coming to ease the pain for all who come will leave again...

When what you want never shows it's you who wants to show what you know.
Even though when it does show it's not what you want but who you know.
For it never goes without a show of how you want it to go....

Waiting for the time to go waiting to go in time with the flow.
It never speeds but goes slow for when it goes it flows so slow.
But never ever do we know how the time is meant to go....

The clock marks the hands in the hall of the clock that stands on the wall.
Waiting for tocking-tick time that's knocking it's time to tick.
For the pain to ease for all who come will not appease.......the WAITING

L. A. Maihi